Maixabel

Phhffffftt!

This film hits like a sledgehammer.

Based on the true story of Maixabel Lasa, whose husband was killed by ETA and whose subsequent work supporting victims of violence led her to meet with her husband’s killers.

Now. I am actually a bad one for going into a story like this, because films about the effects of violence only seem to recognise it as violence when it’s wielded by those deemed ‘illegitimate’ actors. State violence is omnipresent and invisible in the way that fish have no word for water, but those who use similar tactics against the state are violent. So my worry was that was how this would all be framed.

But Maixabel specifically pushed for the inclusion of victims of all violence, including those of police and state forces. In the aftermath of years of violence and the legacy of fascism, she wanted a rehumanisation in how people saw each other. After decades of entrenchment along dividing lines, of ‘them and us’ mentality, she wanted people to look forward, build something beyond repeating what had gone before. She’s actually an extraordinary woman.

And this film does an excellent job of paying homage to that. Maixabel is played beautifully by Blanca Portillo, and Luis Tosar gives an extraordinary performance as Ibon Etxezarreta, the man who pulled the trigger.

Arguably Tosar has the harder job, because his character starts from such an unlikeable place. He starts not just as a killer, but is shown jubilant and carefree in the immediate aftermath of the murder, while Maixabel and her teenage daughter have their lives ripped apart. Even at the trial, he is defiant, unrepentant, chest-thumping, spouting ideological slogans. But the film follows his character arc, as he slowly, step-by-step, reconnects to his own basic humanity. The war he is involved in, whether it is legitimate or illegitimate, whether you see him as a soldier or a terrorist, has done what it always does. It has blunted him to empathy, to his own trauma in the acts he was involved in, to the impact upon his own sense of self. As much as sorrow for the victims of his crime is a huge motivating factor, his repentance is as much a rejection of the person who he used to be. In being able to see the humanity of his victims, he is able to see it in himself once more.

Despite all the weight of politics, this film is at base a deeply personal drama between these two characters. And one that is full of hope for healing, not just for the victims who need it most, but a collective healing.

Breathtaking film.

Colour!

Great little animated short. Colour! is dialogue-free, but uses colour and music to illustrate the daunting experience of being the odd-one-out from a child’s perspective. It tells a story about race, but strips it back, without dialogue to articulate the historically- and socially-laden topic, to just the way it makes you feel.

The main character is a little pink girl who has moved to a blue town and is starting at a blue school. She starts off happy and cheerful, undaunted by the prospect of meeting new people and making new friends. She understands she is different but doesn’t see that as an issue.

Little by little, her difference is highlighted, stumbled over, rejected and corrected by others. Her difference is framed as a problem by those around her. By the teacher who struggles and fails to pronounce her name correctly. By the kids who are disgusted by the smell of her packed lunch. By the art teacher who criticises her way of painting. Everything she does is expressive of a different viewpoint in life, but given the consensus among everyone from the uniform group, a difference, an outlier, is seen as wrong.

Your heart sinks as you see her try to dull or change her colour. It makes you realise that so often we portray the effects of racism as violent and explosive, when a lot of the time, it can just feel like death by a thousand cuts.

But the story doesn’t end on a sad note, and emphasises the importance of representation, as the wee girl sees her colour reflected back at her in a piece of media, takes courage, and dares to live bravely as herself. And her classmates take a keener interest, valuing her difference as something that enriches their lives too.

Lovely wee film.

The Girl Behind The Mirror

Wonderful animated short. The Girl Behind The Mirror tells the story of a young trans girl who is struggling with her fears about living as her authentic self. It starts with her hiding in her room, frightened of the reactions of the adults around her.

A girl appears in the mirror, calling out and comforting her. She takes her through the mirror into her own bedroom, painted the colours she likes, full of cuddly toys. The girl in the mirror is confident and happy, she wears her hair long and has pretty dresses. She lets the young trans lassie stay in her room, safe and comforted, and she steps through the mirror to take her place.

The girl in the mirror is a reflection of who the young lassie wants to become, and the short film shows her keeping that scared younger version of herself safe, while she takes the steps to show her family and the world who she really is.

Really touching short film.