I Loved So Much

I Loved So Much is a documentary about Fadma, a 75-year-old woman who has lived an incredible life.

Firstly, I LOVED Fadma. She is an absolute legend. There is nothing better than a wee auld granny who tells it straight. She shies away from nothing, and calls everything as she sees it. She has such enthusiasm for living, she’s more alive than most of us. She always laughing, or smiling, and takes every opportunity to dance when music is on the go. She’s warm-hearted and kind, and everyone in this film agrees they are better for having known her. A woman of great spirit.

When I read the synopsis about this film, I thought it was going to be grim, very serious, and controversial. Fadma left Morocco at age 20 to become a prostitute in the French army as they headed off to fight in Vietnam. Now, she wants a pension, same as the soldiers, for the work she did in the war. Anyone reading a synopsis like that would be prepared for a sobering film, but that’s because you haven’t met Fadma. Her story is one of adventure and joy. Even now, in the hardships of poverty, she can’t believe her good luck at having had such a life.

She travelled the world, she’s had numerous lovers, she was wounded in war, and she was able to adopt two wonderful sons. She considers herself to have had many blessings. And now she’s the star of a film all about her!

While she tells plainly the unfairness of her lack of pension, of her abusive ex-husband burning the papers she might have used to make her claim to the French government, and of the hardship of her current situation, she tells all as part of the adventure of her life. She begs on the streets now, and it is what it is, but even there she makes friends with a busker, and uses it as an opportunity to dance.

If only we could all face our hardships with such grace. A really inspiring woman. She deserves every cent of that pension.